Insert unifying title here -> no, i'm sleepy, piss off.

Don't know how many of you out there write on a regular basis... but if your like me you find that writing the same way you speak to feel more natural than say writing in proper form for a college professor or the psychological manipulator of a letter i just wrote for my step mother to use on her sons high school superintendent. Always been a very empathic person. A lot of times its good for everyone around me. Chicks dig it and it gets me out of trouble about as much as it gets me into trouble. Some of you will know exactly what i mean by that. For everyone else... be glad you've never had to think your way out of your own facsimile :p
     That being said; when i do write it drives me absolutely insane to do any more than five or six pages where I'm writing in a proper fashion. Well I'm working on a twelve or so page thesis called based on the writing style John Edgar Wideman has used to great success in his... exaggerated might be the correct word to use... accounting of the diverging paths of himself, a Rhodes scholar, and his brother Robby, a convicted accomplice to murder from his life as a small time thug. When i say exaggerated i don't meant that it isn't a true story. More that he fabricated events and situations and concepts of expression necessary to condense complex subject matter into a much more readable form. Not all the details in a story are concrete enough to stand on their own without the billions of supporting asynchronous threads of meaning only known to those so close to the epicenter of the events they are based upon. that got a bit esoteric.... sometimes shit is hard to understand unless you know all the little things that lead up to the shit in question. So a writer has to take liberty with the subject matter. spin it like clay. weave it like thread. mix it like paint. its all the same. A reshaping of the original that holds the same general concept but shifted into a bite sized nugget containing the proper balance of elements to hold the readers interest.
     This can be extremely frustrating to do. sometimes it means dropping details that are important to you as the story teller but ultimately unimportant in the grand scheme of things. A good comparison for this audience might be, while playing just about any mmo you can imagine, grinding xp at some hapless orc refugee camp pushed from their, now troll occupied, war-torn homeland you have amassed a wonderful collection of stacks of smelly leather banana hammocks that can be recycled into useable leather once you get back to your bank where your scissors of plus 3 crinkle cutting lay safely tucked away. and you have completely filled your inventory with these soon to be valuable stacking items when all the sudden one of the little buggers drops a fucking pulsating slightly larger than the racial average wanghammer of mollywopping and well by golly that would be pretty useful for the hybrid high def porno-mancer you have been kicking around in your head since yesterdays all nighter but the level req on it is 69 and you know it would take weeks to get it that high and who knows if it would even be worth the time and this item doesnt really work for any cookie cutter builds so it wont do well in the market. now you have to decide if you drop 2 stacks of 100 sweaty orc thongs to fit this possible useless item in there or leave it lie on that orphans corpse for the next 2 minutes untill the server decides its teased you for long enough.....
     Now that was a fucking tangent eh? well it proper writing thats the kind of shit i would have left out but instead i wrote it cause i felt like it. that would have been like having had the foresight to bring the scissors or a town portal or summon out a guildie/alt to loot mule it back home for you.

     um yeah but like i was saying; its nice to write in spoken text after blasting out a bunch of properly structured nonsense. eventually ill post sections of said thesis. had an interesting idea on how to achieve proper dissociation from the main theme of the whole thing. made a nice little bubble chart from brainstorming it started with the central theme (same as that story i posted earlier actually. that you never really know when something begins) then after i branched out from that as thoroughly as i could i branched yet again from each of the most disparate outliers and once done with that i deleted the original branches from the central theme. leaving me with a lot of things that revolve around one idea but don't quite touch on it. i really think this is the proper strategy for me on this essay. kind of like a degrees of separation thing except it will work in a circle. and only once your read nearly all the fragments will the central idea present itself. but not directly. the reader should just arrive at it. gonna be damn tricky.
     hmmm the sleep aids are kicking in and i have class in a few hours. le sigh.... see you all later
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